Vivid Dream of Death... and Beyond

[EireWolf]

Every once in a while I have a very vivid dream that changes me a little. The other night I had such a dream.

It started off like the normal random crazy dream.... I'll abbreviate that part so as not to bore you overmuch, but please read to the end... it gets interesting.

I'm back at my parents' house for some kind of family reunion. It is very early morning and most of the family is still asleep when I hear a car pull up outside. I go out to find my uncle, with 2 very large horses in a horse trailer. We take them out and let them graze on the front lawn, and I decide to hop on the horse's back rather than leading it. Eventually I slide off again. (time passes, don't remember this part)

An officer of the law comes looking for me. Suddenly everyone is there on the front lawn. He explains that passersby have seen a girl riding a horse, and it's illegal to ride a horse in this county blah blah blah, and he asks for me by name. I make my way to the front of the crowd and present myself politely. He starts talking again, and as I'm listening, I see something in the sky. (It's either nighttime or very early morning, because I can see stars, but somehow it's not terribly dark.) I also see a very fast-moving light, as fast as a satellite or faster, but its movements are erratic. I'm trying to pay attention to the officer, but I can't take my eyes off the light. It's in the distance, but then it starts coming toward us very fast. I point to it and everyone looks, then gasps because it looks like it may hit us. It tumbles through the air overhead, and we see that it's some kind of vessle. (It doesn't look like an alien ship, more like the space shuttle, and it has writing on it.) It is obviously out of control, tumbling and spinning all over the place with no apparent destination. It passes over us again, and then returns toward us... and then we see just how immense it is as it hurtles straight for us.

Impact... shockwave... fiery white destruction.

In the last second before we are swept under, I can hear the screams of my family, and I have time to say one word... "Jesus." It is a prayer for forgiveness, mercy, salvation, a prayer of love, joy, and homecoming, all in one word.

After that... stillness, silence, and the fiery whiteness that consumed everything moments before. As I lay there in my bed, I knew it had been a dream, but part of me was waiting... waiting for it to be true. Waiting to go home. Waiting for that white light to intensify and become the glory of my God.

In the moment of impact, the blow was so intense and the destruction so complete and inevitable... I knew all would be annihilated, and there was only time to cry out to God. No time to say goodbye, no time to think... All my thoughts were suddenly one: Jesus. A single word that encompassed every prayer imaginable. Even as my body was surely being destroyed, my mind was alive... and I wonder if this is what it is like to die.

After I said the Name, and knew all else was destroyed, there was nothing but peace and silence. And a sense of waiting, but not as we normally wait, impatient or bored. Waiting and longing, but also peace.

And I thought... If this is what death is like, then I welcome it.

[Gypsy]

That's quite the incredible dream. I won't give my thoughts on every part or it for fear that it may cheapen the original impact - but thank you for posting about it. It really lines some things up into perspective.

[Zilch]

(blinks)..whoa...

[EireWolf]

That's quite the incredible dream. I won't give my thoughts on every part or it for fear that it may cheapen the original impact - but thank you for posting about it. It really lines some things up into perspective.

I don't mind if you post your thoughts... actually I'm curious to hear them. It won't cheapen the original impact, for me anyway.

It did put things into perspective for me. All of this... this world, all the little things that I worry so much about every day.... All of it is meaningless in the light of eternity. Jesus is all.

[Spirit_Wolf8356]

That is quite a dream, Eire. I don't think I'd mind death all that much if it was like that either.

[Nia-chan]

I had a dream where everything was quiet, except in my dream I had just been in a car accident and my family wasn't moving. O_o'
But I liked your dream, it was cool just reading about it.

[JediSonic]

Cool dream!

Haha, it just goes to show how stupid "the matrix" is when it assumes that people who 'think' they die in the matrix die in real life too XD

[cbwing0]

That is quite an interesting dream. Usually in my dreams I have superhuman powers, so I would have just stopped and deflected the falling vessel in mid-air; so I doubt that I would ever have a dream like that. Often something will happen in a dream, then I "rewind" it, and change things to prevent whatever disaster/death that would have otherwise occurred. Perhaps that is a sign that I'm not ready to die...

[Spiritsword]

I've talked about my fear of death on here before, suffice to say that I have had dreams where an inevitable death was approaching quickly (being launced into space in a capsule was one of the worst) and pretty much all I felt was terror. So obviously, I have a ways to go in that respect. It seems to me that the way you faced death in your dream, EireWolf, is the way you would face death in real life. (You weren't aware you were dreaming, right? To you it was real, so you really believed you were facing death, right?) It demonstrates a very strong faith and I'm glad the dream itself strengthened your faith even more. I think both God and Satan can and do send us dreams (not all of our dreams, but certain ones), that can influence our faith if we allow them to.

[EireWolf]

It seems to me that the way you faced death in your dream, EireWolf, is the way you would face death in real life. (You weren't aware you were dreaming, right? To you it was real, so you really believed you were facing death, right?)

I hope you're right, Spiritsword. When I woke up, I was really wondering if I would react that way in real life. I truly hope so.

I think both God and Satan can and do send us dreams (not all of our dreams, but certain ones), that can influence our faith if we allow them to.

Yes, I believe that too. I had a dream several years ago, right before I went off to college, in which Jesus spoke to me and calmed my fears. He appeared in the form of a Living Tree... I know no other way to describe it; it was more alive than you or me. I don't remember any specific words; in fact, it seemed to be in a heavenly language, but the essence of it was: Wherever you go, I AM. I will be your rock and foundation, when all you know is slipping away... hang on to me. All is well, and all will be well. Fear not, for I am with you.

[Spiritsword]

That's awesome! Dreams can be powerful things.

[Lluvia]

Very interesting, and yet fantastic. I have had astonishing dreams like that before myself. I once had a dream that I committed suicide in self-reliance that I would depart to Heaven. Very cultic, I realize, but I believe I had that dream for I was fretful on my faith as a Christian. It was so overwhelming, it had me feeling awed for the rest of that day, but for the good. It really had be thinking about my faith and trust in God. ^^

[wiggins]

That's cool! I've never had a dream like that! Kinda makes me want one... but I'm scared that it will be scary and i will be scared. And of course I don't want to be influenced by any of Satan's dreams that you mentioned Eirewolf. I only want the dreams that God sends and wants me to have to influence me. At any rate, that's really cool!

[Fsiphskilm]

Maybe it's on

[true_noir_chloe]

Wow, Eire, that was a neat dream! I don't think you can really interpret anything from that dream but what you concluded on your own.

I had a similar dream when I was a teen-ager. I was in my bed and I honestly can't remember what it was which horrified me, but what sticks now is the fact I woke up with one word on my lips, "Jesus." I think that happened to me again when I was struggling with some stuff when my kids were little. I always remember the warmth which surrounded the name, "Jesus." It was almost more joy, from deep within, than one could handle. I even wrote a song about it.

I think this was probably because of what we've been talking about. He is real to you. He is really there for you. And, He wanted to let you know that. I remember feeling afterward exactly how you felt. God does use dreams to comfort and to confirm things to us I think. I think, like Spiritsword said, you must truly have a faith deeper than even you realized, my friend.

[Aka-chan]

That's way, way cool. The ability to look heavenward instead of earthward in such a time...wow. Whenever I dream about dying, I'm always thinking about things I wish I had done or said and what I'll be leaving behind.

Other dreams, I've found, present me with scenarios I may encounter in the future. Whether I make the right choice or not then (I've found that sometimes my waking self cannot comprehend the decisions of my dream self), I'll know what to do when the real thing comes along (and sometimes I've even discussed the possiblities with a mentor.) It's nice because life in itself doesn't have a rewind button.

[YesIExist]

That's pretty neat. Amazing what the brain does while we're asleep.

I think it would be even more majestic.

My guess as to why you had a sense of waiting is because that's what you're doing right now on earth, and also I don't think that the human mind can truly encompass all the God is and can reveal.

[EireWolf]

It was so overwhelming, it had me feeling awed for the rest of that day, but for the good. It really had me thinking about my faith and trust in God.

Yes, that's what this dream did to me, too.

And of course I don't want to be influenced by any of Satan's dreams that you mentioned Eirewolf. I only want the dreams that God sends and wants me to have to influence me.

I do remember having a dream once that was surely from Satan... I will not describe it here, or ever, to anyone. It was too awful... the most filthy, blasphemous images... but mercifully, I no longer remember them. After I woke up, I had the worst feeling ever... usually such a vivid dream will stay with me all day, or even for several days, and affect my thoughts... But I prayed hard, immediately after waking up and realizing that this dream was straight from Hell. I prayed that God would cover and protect me, and purge those awful images from my mind... and He did. I let it go, and it no longer had a hold on me. Wiggins, God will protect you from such things... do not fear them.

I think this was probably because of what we've been talking about. He is real to you. He is really there for you. And, He wanted to let you know that. I remember feeling afterward exactly how you felt. God does use dreams to comfort and to confirm things to us I think. I think, like Spiritsword said, you must truly have a faith deeper than even you realized, my friend.

I truly, truly hope so... Sometimes I feel like the prodigal daughter. The spirit is willing, but the flesh... well, the flesh is all too weak. And yet, I want no more excuses... I want the name of Jesus to be on my lips and in my heart all the time, not just when I'm facing inevitable death.

Christ have mercy on us, for we are weak... You know our weaknesses, Lord. May you ever be our strength.

[Inferno]

man what a dream!

[EireWolf]

mmm...my God...

yeah, that's pretty much what I said too.