God Speaks-i think

[girlninja]

I was having a significant spiritual attack...to the point that I felt physical pain. All I could hear from demons was that I worthless, unlovable, unworthy of the fiancee i have, underserving of everything. I was beyond tears...and all my beloved could do was hold me. i couldn't even cry out to God.

I didn't realize it was demons at first, all I could feel, hear, think was those words that I didn't deserve to live. My fiancee,Ian, certaintly deserved better. As he held me, he told me pray. I told him I couldn't and gently he kept insisting. He prayed silently for me and i continued to wither in pain, both emotional and physical. Evenutally, I relented and begin to pray. Silently, I prayed and God spoke back. Ian continued to comfort me, telling me everything's ok. God told me to rebuke them *the demons* verbally. I told him I couldn't, he said I could. So I begin, slowly, shakily I rebuked the demons in the Lords name. The spirits names came to me from God and I continued. After, I was done, I could barely move, could barely breathe and all I could do was praise God.

But then something else happened, and this is not me trying to gloat but merely tell what the Lord has given me though I deserve nothing. He spoke to me but he told me to say it verbally again. So I did and included a message for me and Ian. I just want to give praise to God for it. I have never felt that before and well was amazing in so many ways. I just....dunno..speechless. I felt it was a prophecy and since then I have felt such peace. Just wanted to share.

[kaiser]

The Lord must have something great planned for you..... I don't see why else the demons would attack someone so strongly....

[Anti-me]

Have you ever read Henri Nouwen's Life of the Beloved. That would apply pretty well here, for what you were feeling.

[Alice]

Praise the Lord!