K. Ayato wrote:Are you a true Believer? Is Jesus YOUR personal Savior? If the answer is yes, then there's no fear of demonic possession. But it sounds like your obsession with this character gave Satan enough room to cause troubles.
Whether spiritual or mental, this isn't something you can face alone. Get in touch with a pastor, a church counselor, or see your doctor and get referred to a specialist. This is outside our area of expertise (aka we can't help you professionally). Knowing there's someone with more experience on your side as you fight your battles is a huge help.
K. Ayato wrote:Are you a true Believer? Is Jesus YOUR personal Savior? If the answer is yes, then there's no fear of demonic possession. But it sounds like your obsession with this character gave Satan enough room to cause troubles.
Whether spiritual or mental, this isn't something you can face alone. Get in touch with a pastor, a church counselor, or see your doctor and get referred to a specialist. This is outside our area of expertise (aka we can't help you professionally). Knowing there's someone with more experience on your side as you fight your battles is a huge help.
thedragongirl77 wrote:Pertaining to the recent replies that occurred while I was typing that, I don't know if I'm a Christian. I have too many doubts and there seems to be too many options. It's too hard. I know I'm falling so I try and direct my friends toward Christianity even if I'm a hypocrite and won't go myself.
thedragongirl77 wrote:I would like that, Masaru.
After realizing months ago that Seb was unhealthy I tried to ditch him and find another fictional crush to fill the hole he has bore into me. By the time this occurred I didn't even like him as much anymore, but I remembered how good it felt to fantisize and I kept going back. I'm a mess..
I would really like to learn how to preform exorcisms on myself and others to prevent things like this.
thedragongirl77 wrote:One important thing I forgot to mention is that I'm 13 years old.
I prayed, I really prayed last night for the first time in awhile. I don't know if you guys believe in direct Angel encounters, or If it was his wishful thinking, but I asked the Lord to protect me from the demons so nothing like this happened again. I asked him to cleanse me and I followed the directions I have always known for being forgiven. Maybe the lord allowed the demons to come to me this time because that's what it took. I submit myself to him forever, and this tme I really mean it. I'm going to turn away from Seb forever now, I'm going to erase all traces of him. I'm going to act. I asked the lord to send an angel or something to directly defend me from them. To wrap his wings around me, if angels have them. I imagined a big beautiful white wing shielding me, and I felt at peace for once. I'm being raised in a very Christian household, as I type this the morning Christian radio turns on. It will be on all day. Bible study at night, even though I haven't done any of it for awhile. I'm stil not going to tell my family or the church. Il be grounded forever for what I've viewed online...sucked into lust and almost satanism. The conversation will lead into confessing my viewing of pornography and cursing all the time.
All I need to deal with this is you guys, in turn the lord, and in the end I'm going to end it myself. I'm going to live a long happy healthy life and an eternity with...my savior. This time I'm going to act, nothing lost in vain. For when I'm in the lowest valleys only means there are towering mountains ahead for me.
thedragongirl77 wrote:Thank you, thank you guys so much, I couldn't have done this without you. I could be dead spiritually and maybe even physically without your help. I never cry, I never cried during any of this. But I'm not even sure if I know just how much it means to me, because I can't comprehend it. There's still a hole from Sebastian, but I'm going to have my friends support me and get away from it. I don't need him, I don't..oh crap...What should I do when I want him back? I want to now, please continue praying so I can stop. I'm not going to look at him. I'm suddenly lost. Oh Lord, deliver me..the battle isn't over yet.
K. Ayato wrote:You're 13 years old. There's no need to rush into relationships. Crushes are normal, but they can't ultimately satisfy. That's a role only Jesus can fill 100% and beyond.
thedragongirl77 wrote:I see your point, but it is quite similar, and my experience matched some aspects of it. I never even knew demons could affect people now until I read it. I never know where to look in my bible anyway for anything.
thedragongirl77 wrote:Did some research and found a real good prayer model. I'm going to try and find help at my church without getting my parents involved. I'm going to find a private place to fully rebuke the demons, and I'm going to search the bible for answers. What else should I do?
K. Ayato wrote:Why hide from your parents? True, they may not fully understand what you experienced, but you should at least let them know you're struggling with spiritual issues and think people at this church can help point you in the right direction.
thedragongirl77 wrote:Crap, I replied with my reasoning but it didn't send. In short,
No, I won't tell my parents.
thedragongirl77 wrote:That's why I'm reluctant to go to the church. I'm doing this myself.
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