Postby Danyasaur » Fri Aug 08, 2008 3:15 pm
This is a hard post to write for me, even if some of you may not understand it.
I’m resigning myself from the role plays I am currently in, and removing myself from the internet save for checking my e-mail every so often.
I’ll explain to the best I feel I‘m allowed.
God has asked me to lay down my creative writing, along with the time I spend online (TV and Movies also, as far as I know). I’m sure that to some that fact will not make sense, but to me the clarity is crystal.
There comes times in your lives that God may (Though He may not) ask you to lay down something that’s a part of you. In my life it happens to be the worlds and the beings that my keyboard and my mind have created. And it hurts.
But He’s not being mean.
Sometimes things, no matter what they are, can become all consuming. Even things that you love, and that are even possibly good things.
God does not look down upon, or despise the creativity I’ve poured into my creations (He loves my creativity, I know, because He told me). He’s jealous (Exodus 34:14 ; Deuteronomy 4:24) of the fact that they have taken up residency in places of my heart they never belonged, drawing close to the edge of becoming as idols.
It takes up my time and my heart. Both should be fully His. (Matthew 22:36-37)
I guess basically what I want to convey the most is this:
I want Jesus more than I want my writing, drawing, music, creativity, entertainment, my friends, my family, my hopes, my dreams, my security, my comfort, the deepest desires of my heart… He surpasses all of them. And if giving up a part of who I am will please Him, will draw me in closer to Him, then - no matter how much it may hurt - I will do it happily, and not count it as loss.
Please understand that I love you all so deeply that at times it quite literally hurts. Me leaving will never ever change that love.
I’m sorry for any non-spoken obligations I’ve had to all of you concerning the role plays and the writing, including inconveniences that this may cause as a side effect. I’m also deeply sorry if it hurts anyone in any way shape or form. But this is something I have to do, and something I will not back out of.
For some of my closer friends (Linda, Dan, Laura, Bryt, Tee, Rose), all of you listed are entitled to my home phone number, which you can get either by e-mailing me (I’ll make sure my CAA e-mail is a current address), or getting it from Linda. You can call me at any time, but you are not obligated to. Anyone else not listed is entitled to e-mailing me.
If any of you still want know more about why I’m leaving, then don’t hesitate to ask. I’ll except any questions you have to the best of my ability.
I love y'all, and I pray that God pours out blessings on all of you.
- Danya
[color="DimGray"]I don't believe that I would die if I saw you face to face;
but that my spirit would become so alive it took my body's place.
- Danya[/color]