Peace and Grace,,
well I like to share with u guys a little testimony of my life hoping it will be beneficial....
I raised to a Christian family who isn't too religious or too loose but still conserving religious commandments in their heart.. not like going to the church frequently..
When I was young nearly 13 or 14 years old I haven't been interested in religion and just concerned about other fun and world things..
I remember my bro crying to me to pray I prayed with him once but didn't felt spirituality..
I was believing in God then until the worst thing come up.. Atheism
I hadn't very much friends so in summer vacations I used to stay surfing the internet for hours , till a website called "Atheists Arabs" came through , I read and read and read in my mind I was saying "what trivial minds they have God sure exists".. I closed the computer and the idea of atheism was controlling my mind , it was irresistable I was thinking about it nearly 24 hours before I sleep , while waking up , till I surrendered and said God doesn't exist!!!! I hid this feeling inside my heart not telling anyone but keeping it to myself...
I was moving on with my atheist feeling and excelling in school having straight As in subjects
Till I reached grade 9 my life changed , the straight As report turned into B and Cs , I felt so weak , I felt like I am empty , like I need God , I need someone filling my heart filling my empty self
I felt like I must read about religions to find the God who live in me I read about judaism , islam , bahaai's , buddhism but still I found no God like in Christianity loving and caring and sacrifacier
Well it's trivial testimony but longing to hear yours , anybody had atheism experience?