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I just thought you guys might want to know...I've been journaling this in Microsoft Word for the past hour or so.

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Today has been hard. On the way home from the movies I could feel tension building inside me as I listened to Rush of Fools’ “Peace be Stillâ€

*hug* I'm happy that you got through it. I too hurt myself when I get mad at others. Not with cutting, just slapping and punching. I'll slap my face hard or punch my legs until i'm bruised and no longer have the strength. I havn't done it in awhile, however the more times that I get mad, all it takes is something really big to happen and my mind snaps and I just let all loose at me. The last time it happened was last month here at work. I went in the back and kinda came out of a fog when I was exausted. Do you have any suggestions as to what I can do? I mean it's like I become a different person that I can't stop. . .Sorry, this thread is about you...again. I'm happy for you. ^_^

The first thing I do is just stop and evaluate my actions. 'Why do I feel this way? How did these feelings come about?' and I try to take deep breaths and calm myself. Then, or sometime alongside doing the other things, I pray and ask God to show me the light of why I am so angry. (Because anger always comes before my self-injury) Then, just because I almost always have a Bible on me, I go and read. Asking God to show me something, anything, to calm my mood and show me truth.

Aw and it's fine, anything to help another person in need. And thanks for being honest, y'know, that always is the first step to any type of healing. ^_^ I hope these things help you!


God bless you, Bakura!

Wow, that is making me shed some tears, but in happiness that you made it through, and at the continued strength that God provides to us when we call on Him.... it's so amazing! Praise God that things went well! I'm praying for you and I am so thankful for the strength He has given to me, each time I let go and called on Him. God Bless

See, God can use even the testimony of one night to impact others. Note to self: Never forget that.
He provides so efficiently. I just can't say He hasn't ever done anything for me. Because He obviously has, and it shows here.
God bless ya, Hidden! ^_^

Oh, and one month clean, everyone! Hallelujah!!

So true, and I know postings from you and others in the GLPT and the GDPT have helped me as well. I pray that I will be able to help and encourage others, even just one person here, with my postings. Posts like you made here are very helpful in reminding me of the countless times God has eased my pain... when I really think about it, they far outweigh the times I have been troubled and alone, but I can never remember that in the moment... still, sometimes I allow myself to fall away again, and I know it is only because I am not giving it all up to Him. I'm hoping I really am learning to do that more, to just give it to Him and trust with all of me.

That is so awesome! One month clean! Praise God! Praying for your continued freedom

Take care!

Okami,
Praise God! One month clean! He certainly is doing amazing things!

HiddenWoodchuck wrote:So true, and I know postings from you and others in the GLPT and the GDPT have helped me as well. I pray that I will be able to help and encourage others, even just one person here, with my postings. Posts like you made here are very helpful in reminding me of the countless times God has eased my pain... when I really think about it, they far outweigh the times I have been troubled and alone, but I can never remember that in the moment... still, sometimes I allow myself to fall away again, and I know it is only because I am not giving it all up to Him. I'm hoping I really am learning to do that more, to just give it to Him and trust with all of me.

That is so awesome! One month clean! Praise God! Praying for your continued freedom

Take care!

And I think it's awesome to know He's been working in me like that, and in everyone else, too. I know there've been times when I've read posts of yours and just been so inspired

Yeah, and that's what we need to focus on--giving our all to Him. Because when we focus on Him, nothing is impossible. I too, struggle to remember the good He's done for me. Been there, done that. Methinks it's secondhand nature to us humans.

Sheenar wrote:Okami,
Praise God! One month clean! He certainly is doing amazing things!

Every day. And I'm going strong!
Stormin' out these chains, or, well, trying to ^^;

Your story in general, Okami, is a reminder that no matter how many times we fall, God is always there to pick us up and make us clean once more. Through your willingness to share, people have been inspired and comforted.

Congrats Okami, see God stayed with you:thumb:. I myself and many others have been through the same thing/similar situations. God helped us all , like he has with you. Congrats .