God, you knew of my existence before I was even born,
Fearfully and wonderfully I was made in this world,
Beautifully designed to represent You.
You desired me to know You as my Father and Lord.
But sinful deceptions beckoned my heart
To pursue selfish pleasures and evil desires.
Turning me away from my one true Love.
I continued to sin, bearing a twisted conscience.
All this time, You knew what would happen,
Yet You planned all along, to bring me redemption.
Giving Your one and only Son as a ransom to be paid.
Shedding His blood so that I may be saved.
Despite what You've done, I brushed it away.
Cheapening Your grace and diminishing its' value.
No remorse, no guilt, not even shame.
Why was I so callous, foolish, and blinded by hate?
Towards your holiness, sovereignty, and pure-hearted love?
Sorrow and disgust filled my empty soul.
You whispered tenderly and quietly, "Come away with Me."
But I ran instead, tears pouring down my face.
I hardened my heart so that You wouldn't see,
A pitiful, spiteful, and wretched person like me.
But You continued to pursue me, despite my weak attempts,
Assuring me that love couldn't be bought at all costs.
After wrestling all night, just as Jacob wrestled with You,
I finally surrendered, so that I could be with You.