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i've been very depressed lately. many of my friends are turning their backs on me for something i did. i never intended it to happen and i have tried to apologize..i never even knew i was hurting them..now i cant sleep at night.
these poems are the results of my broken heart.

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Once Friends Now Enemies

I put on this black armor,
Made of anger and bitterness,
It helps hide these wounds I have
And help keep the knives away,
You say that I have no pain,
Can you not see the blood I’m shedding?
I see your cuts,
I’m not denying that I hurt you,
I never intended for this to happen,
I only tried to fix my mistake,
You lashed back with anger,
You hurled bright and flashing flames,
Now I put on this armor,
I hurl the fire at you,
Both bleeding,
Both angry,
Once friends now enemies,
I cut you down and laugh,
Walk away without a goodbye,
With an evil grin on my face,
And tears streaming down my eyes,
I turn and say,
“This never would have happened,
If you reacted differentlyâ€

-Bloodshot Eyes-

Tossing,
Turning,
Spinning,
Screaming,
Crying into my pillow,
Tossing,
Churning,
Whirling,
Screaming,
Swirling thoughts through my head,
Cant sleep,
Cant dream,
Cant stop screaming,
Cant stop blaming myself,
Tried to apologize,
But I hurt you and you wont forget it,
Never wanted this,
Never asked for this,
Tossing,
Turning,
Sleepless nights,
Bloodshot eyes,
I sit on the edge of the bed,
With beer in my hand,
Drinking away the pain,
Tossing,
Churning,
Crying,
Dying inside.

there will be more to come. i havent slept for atleast two weeks. i've been crying everynight and i'm so tired..and thats probably why these poems..dont have much to them..cuz im not thinking too well when i write them..its only to help myself get out my hurt really..but i thought maybe someone would see something good in them.

Well, I hope that you're not actually drinking alcohol or contemplating suicide.

The poems are good.

How are things going by now?

Interesting poems FairyPrincess. I ask you to pray to God to make you whole again. You could ask for Him to give you the words to talk to your friends and regain their friendship.

Otherwise, this may be hard to accept, but you may have lost your friends, you will gain new ones. Please be happy again FairyPrincess...we pray that you do *hug*

I, too, hope you aren't doing anything destructive to yourself. Drinking and cutting will only make things worse.

I know the pain of being ditched by people you call your "best friends." It especially hurts when you have no idea why they suddenly hate you.

On the plus side, these poems are good; they don't have that bad-teen-agnst-poetry feel.