Postby Naga Kisaki » Wed Nov 16, 2005 7:54 pm
FOr a long time I didn't think God was talking to me, but it wasn't more then a year ago that I began to understand his voice in my life.
At first, for my own childish reasons, I think I tried to convince myself that he wasn't talking to ME. THis all happened when I was into some messed up stuff. I was always drawn to the occult, but at the same time scared of it. I'd be walking in the non-fiction section at the library and come across a book on astronomy and reading stars and other books. SO the first time I 'heard' the lord was when he gave me this internal alarm, a strange, hollow feeling in my chest anytime I went near something he didn't approve of, like books of spells, or websites that had lewd content, I would get that hollow feeling and know the lord was telling me to back away.
I think the time god said to me, "I'm here, Believe it. I'll listen." was when My mother was pregnant with my sister, things weretough around the house, and It just didn't seem like our family would make it. One night, I was meditating about our situation, feeling pretty upset, but sure God would get us throh, I can swear he said to my heart, "Ask me. I'll help you through this if you let me."
He did. That was roughly two years ago. Nowadays The Lord and I have been discussing my gift of imagination, and he's telling me that he's unhappy with a lot of sick things people are into that is side-by-side with my own intrest, ((EX: A certain Anime was one I loved, but it was blasphemous. So I had to ease up with clinging to it. Also, I had been writing adult fanfictions. God told me to throw that out too.)) Now Both of us are working on a Script we hope will counter some of the things being shown. If God hadn't told me to, I probably wouldn't have used my gift for him, I would've used it for myself.
So, you want to know if God talks to me? I think so.
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