my heart is filled with despair as I cry to my God above.
I can't help but feel so very far away when things go wrong in my life. Things add up wrong and don't seem to fit with the image God has given me. What is any girl to do? what is any person to do? I cry at night wishing that things would change. My heart breaks and spills its woes, its blood before its creator. Things build up and I feel a wall closing around me. I feel pain. I feel alone, but at least I still feel. I have my heart even if it's broken. I have retained my humanity though things are hard. That is a challenge in its self. To retain humanity in the midst of trials. It's so easy to give in to the temptation to loose your heart to lock it deep down in one's being and never draw it out again. We must never loose our hearts. We must never forget to live each day for now. We must never forget . Carpe Diem. Seize the day.